If you experience any form of negative self-image, the warmer months that warrant less clothing can seem.. daunting. I have always dreaded the summertime because of this and I can’t even tell you how many times I’ve found myself feeling like less, feeling insecure, or feeling embarrassed because of it.
This week we’re staying at the beach, spending a lot of time in our swimwear, short shorts, dresses with no sleeves, etc., and there are plenty of opportunities to feel insecure.
The first day we were here, I spread out my towel and took my position in the sun when I noticed an impeccably tanned, thin girl setting up right next to us. She had long hair that I’d love to have, wearing a cute ass bathing suit that I’d love to be able to pull off, and she was adorable.
My initial feeling was insecurity, and wondering why she couldn’t go somewhere else. My secondary feeling was embarrassment; like if I was seen by her, I’d be judged, looked at weird, or talked about. Then I took my towel and covered myself with it.
While it took away the fear of anyone seeing my flaws, I then started feeling insecure that I even felt the need to cover myself.
I’m always preaching self-love in the form of acceptance; accepting what we are over forcing ourselves to love the things we don’t. But I seem to struggle with taking my own advice. Like I know how I should think and feel but actually thinking and feeling it is a totally separate thing.
This week I’m challenging myself to accept me for who I am and what I look like. Do I love it? Maybe not. But I am and always will be a work in progress; emotionally, spiritually, and physically. That’s okay. It’s me and it’s okay to accept that. I shouldn’t be embarrassed of myself. No one ever should.
Life is about working hard, making memories, and loving the people around us (including ourselves)
We should be having a good time and enjoying ourselves. We should stop being so obsessed with what we look like. In most cases, we’re the only ones that care. Honestly, we’re the only ones that even notice.
I hope that if you find yourself relating to this post at all, you open yourself up to the world, throw off your towel, and OWN IT. We are all different and no body shape, size, or color is better than another. Our differences are so beautiful and worthy of sporting and showcasing.
So stop worrying & have fun.
YOU DESERVE FUN, DAMMIT.