“Destiny is real. And she’s not mild-mannered. She will come around and hit you in the face and knock you over and before you know what hit you, you’re naked- stripped of everything you thought you knew and everything you thought you didn’t know- and there you are! A bloody nose, bruises all over you, and naked. And it’s the most beautiful thing.”
― C. JoyBell C.
I have moments where I find myself struggling to really grasp what it is I’m doing. And I don’t mean literally, right this second, what doing. In general – what is it that I’m doing or trying to accomplish with this? “Too much” is probably a sufficient answer to my question. I’m always trying to do too much, too quick. I have no sense of patience. I see a goal and I want it now. There’s no room for growth with a mind set like that and you lose yourself in the process.
I obsess over perfection in my work. All of my work. Here and at my regular job. I’m in no way claiming perfection in my work- simply expressing my tendency to nit-pick my photography and everything else to the point that I’m no longer sure what it is I’m looking to fix anymore. Clearer lines, better focus, better color, adjust this, adjust that, move those, do this, you should’ve done “A. B. & C.” but I feel you lose character in perfection, or striving for it.
I think the pressure to have things “perfect” stems from my incessant need to please. If I am working with a couple for their wedding, and let’s be honest here, I’m no professional wedding photographer (I just love being able to capture the memories of such a joyous occasion), my need to please and to make sure they are satisfied with my work absolutely skyrockets.
This need for perfection has definitely stifled my personal style/artistic vision. I like imperfections. Blurry, mismatched, messy, controversial, ridiculous, colorful imperfections. Those imperfections and quirks make up your style and they set you apart from the thousands of people doing the exact same thing you’re doing. No matter what it is you do in life, whether it’s desk work or photography, don’t forget to put yourself in it. Find what it is you like, what makes you happy, and throw it all over the place.
People are going to like your work (or not) for what it is and for what/who you are; not because it looks, sounds, or is like everyone else’s.